Tainted nightmares bordered with satin lullabys

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 21:28:47 GMT

YES im so happy these are coming back!!

. Spell your name as it sounds:
Kerr Sten

2. Are you available?
yes for tea

3. What's your favorite number?
hm 51, 6

4. Favorite color(s)?
purple, pink, blue, green

5. Least Favorite color?
white

6. What are you listening to?
the killers

7. Are you happy with your life right now?
yeah its aight

8. What are you doing right now?
this sruvey then going to stats

9. Favorite smell?
yums

10. How do you make money?
being a bitch

11. Are you outgoing?
pretty

12. Do you like Big Mac's?
never had one.. i know im weird

13. Do you own big sunglasses?
obv.

14. Where do you wish you were right now?
somewhere really fun

THE DIDS:

1. Did you ever want to be a doctor?
yes i used to put pins in my dolls...

2. Did you ever receive an engagement ring?
no just ring pops

3. Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?
its possible

THE DO'S:

1. Do you believe in God?
I dont know

2. Do you know how to swim?
yes.

3. Do you like roller coasters?
Yes.. i wish i was on one

THE DOES:

1. Does your car get good gas mileage?
shit i hate driving

2. Does your family have family picnics?
nope never we are too cool

3. Does your home have a bookcase?
yea

THE HAVES:

1. Have you ever been to Canada?
yes

2. Have you ever gone fishing?
i think like once when i was like 5 and i caught a dinky little fish and everyone else caught really awesome ones.. i never went again

3. Have you ever seen a celebrity?
yes i must say i always get really excited

4. Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
no but i went on a 4 wheeler

THE HOWS:
1. How much money do you have on you right now?
probs less than 20 im poor

2. How many cars have you owned?
0

3. how many jobs have you had?
like 3

4. How tall are you?
5'1 midge

THE LASTS:
1. Last person you hung out with?
chris, brett, eric shari

2. Last thing you said out loud?
im so sleepy

3. Last person you were in a car with?
im pretty sure mindy.. its been a while

4. Last time you ate at McDonalds?
its been a while.. too long if you ask me.. i think at umass lowell oh wait that was wendys damn i dont even know

5. Last thing you had for dinner?
last night fish and onion rings yums

6. Last thing you bought?
play dough

THE WHATS:

1. What is the temperature outside?
cool

2. What time did you wake up?
830

Random:

1. Do you have a best friend?
a few that i can call that

2. Does your crush like you back?
i dont know

41. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
ha sometimes

42. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
i doubt it i love sleep

45. What goes best with a soft drink?
pizza

46. What did you do two nights ago?
i dont know ive been sick so prob slept

47. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
nope

48. Where do you keep your money?
secret

49. When is your next party?
soon as possible

50. What did you do today?
took a test, went to class, ate

51. What was the weather like on your birthday?
warm!

52. Would you make out with anyone on your top friends list?
i dont have a top friends list but if i did yes all of them

53. Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning?
sleepy in my bed

59. What was the first thing you thought this morning?
im so tired

61. What are your plans for this weekend?
get drunk, go home, get presents , pack

4. Coke or Pepsi?
cola

66. What do you dislike at the moment?
being sick and stats and finals

67 What did you dream last night?
i dont remember

68. What's the last TV show you watched?
i dont know idont watch Tv much here

69. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
does sunglasses county

70. Name 1 person onour Top Friends who is the most like you?
out of my bff's ??? no one im an individual bitch

71. Do you always lock your bedroom door?
no never

72. Are you on any medication?
yea

73. Have you ever cut your own hair?
yes unfortunately

74. What is your favorite frozen treat?
ice cream der

75. How many piercings/tattoos do you have?
none, im a loser

76. Where's your favorite place to be?
anywhere as long as im having fun

77. Is there someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
yes my boo's

78. When was the last text you sent?
probs today

79. Do you care what people think about you?
yeah

81. Last new person you met?
ohh i dont know someone at westfield

82. Did you work today?
no

83. Have you ever moshed?
yes im a moshing machine

87. What do you smell like right now?
shit

89. Do you like ketchup?
yea

90. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
cry muthafucka

91. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
doubtful

92. What color is your pillow case?
yello

94. Who was the last persons stomach you saw?
krsitens

96. Have you ever been to California/Chicago?
nay

97. What is the thing that you would most like to change about you?
bod

99. What celebrities do people say you look like?
Michelle branch

100. Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but don't?
yeah really bad

101. Are you a jealous person?
i wnt to say no but i am

uurg

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 05:59:45 GMT

well,
Its been a while since I've written in here, but i need to vent. My life has completely come to a point where I feel stuck.; a rut more or less. Everything in my life lately has left me dissapointed and not satisfied. Coming home for thanksgiving has just furthered these feelings. I dont know what is going on, but I feel so distant from my old life (old self). At school I have been feeling this way for quite a while and I wasnt sure what was going on, but home just assured me it was not home sickness I have been feeling. In fact, I have no clue what it is im feeling. This summer fucked me in the aspect that I became accustomed to hanging out and being in the company of adults. Adults who were sure of thier lives and knew what they wanted to "be." I became used of the maturity and the routine. Now, I find myself not wanting to get involved with the silly frat parties and ragers that I loved soooo much last year. I find myself not wanting to go out and have a good time with my old friends. I just find myself feeling very much alone. It's as though I have lost a big part of my youth and nothing has replaced it and im just walking around with an emptiness that I cant figure out how to fill. I miss the summer, I miss being confident. I just dont understand what is it I need to do. I'm stuck and its killing me. I miss having boys in my life. Another aspect this summer fucked me on. I saw what older men can treat girls like, and it made me absolutely disgusted with college boys. Also, i managed to get stuck living with the scum of all scumbag dudes. And everything just feels lost and uncertain. I want to be my happy self. I know im growing up, I know im changing. I can feel myself losing friends, and in a way Im ok with it because theres no going back now. Hopefully this summer I will be living in Boston surrounding myself with new faces... hopefully. I dont think I can successfully live here, or I may go nuts. Well tata for now, hopefully the next entry will be more pleasant.

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 20:08:16 GMT

Hm.   So much has changed since i have last written in here. I worked at the Liberty this summer. It was a wonderful experience. I never would have expected to be as successful and make the impression I did. It has given hope in my future endeavers as a business person. My favorite memory from the Liberyt by far was the opening day pep rally. I had felt a job complete and couldnt have been more overjoyed with the final product. But i did miss miss youth. I felt as though i was in my thirties already.
      This year at school so far has been nothing but lovely. Where I live is such a nicer enviroment than last year. I feel as though I can be myself and people will accept me here and i do not need to put on any type of act.   For the first time in my life aside from my ongoing problem with weight, I feel comfortable in my own skin. I can feel myself changing and trying to become a "better" person. Perhaps better is not the correct word, maybe happier. This summer did a number on my confidence in nothing but positive ways. I was not expecting that at all. School is going to be extremely challeneging and I can feel myself growing apart from people I still cannot let go of. But that is life. College is about finding who you are and I never thought like that last year, but this year I am putting in such an effort to grow and change for the better. I just hope everyone around me will be willing to accept who I am trying to become.
      Overall, I am very happy with that way things are going so far (knock on wood).   My hopes for sophmore year is that i venture on some trips. I already have a few in mind, canada, nyc, jamaica, hopefully others, but money is tight still despite my tireless hours of working this summer. Anywho, I should probally get back to history. Nothing like reading about the new deal.

See ya

-Kirsten

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 05:02:37 GMT

ok well i cant sleep.
Ive been planning this birthday celebration and invited like 100 people.. way way to many. Far to many to fit in my basement/ backyard or jacs backyard. I made a deal with the parentals I can do t his thing if everyone just passes out here, i dont know i dont think its a big deal im just nervous some fuckheads are gona drive and die and it will be my fualt. But all this birthday shannigans has had me thinking about this past year. Id have to say this year was one of those years. One of those years ill look back and be like i fucking wish i was 18 again. But not only was it a great year it was a major turning point in my life. I learned how to be me and take care of myself. I know that souns selfish but you have to be selfish to survive and live. I learned how to force myself to study, go to the gym, make friends, resolve situations. I learned the difference between true friendship and fake. I learned what to eat so i wouildnt gain 20 pounds. I learned a lot about guys. I had sex for the first time and i really never thought that would happen. And mainly i just learned how to live independently. I wish in 20 yrs when hopefully livejournal is still up, i can read this and my life has just gotten so amazing, but i feel like it probally wont abd this year is gona be a highlight.
I pretty much have wrtieen along these lines every year but i want to remmeber this year, it was such a important year. I especially hope I am still in contact with these people
Jenn..... i met her this year. She's probally going to become my best friend possibly for ever. We are the same person. and school would have sucked if i never met her
My umassers particularly Anna, amanda,eefa,amy- study, party,chill,eat,workout. You guys were seriously the best thing i could have ever found at umass
Corner room- If me and nancy could live in a 2 x 4 room and not kill eachother well, that was an acheivement all in intself.
Timmy...showed me that not all boys are scum of the earth. We never got the chance to have a long lasting relationship or fall in love but he was a good kid and treated me good, I forgot what that was like :).
home gals... (esppp. Shanjocelynashleyjennacarakaitlyn) Always there no matta what
danielle...we have our ups and downs but sisters forever.
jac...no words needed.. but my bestest always cant wait for next year at the zooo

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 01:32:23 GMT

hmm. Really the onyl reason i write this in there is so I can read this in like ten years and be like hahah my life. Well it appears my life is the butt end of a joke. i get hired for a job in March to start june 1st, then it magically disspaears. oh gooodnesssssss, but summer has been ok. Life is good, but it does have a mean sense of humor sometimes

i dont know su

Mon, 28 May 2007 05:30:32 GMT

Hm summer is my beat. It's agreeing with me quite nicely. To go back, this year was probally one of the best years of my life. College has really brought me so many things. I miss it alot. I really feel sorry for people who dont get to expereience college. But summer really hasnt been bad for me so far. Granted its only been a week and i havent really done anything, its been relaxing. Ive been re-connecting with lots of old friends this summer. Last night just hung with some of the girls and drank some wine. Fri went to boston partied with some friends. Just been chillen otherwise. I hope me and jacqui are able to become friends again, i feel like we have faded a lot. But my friends who are in college are glorious. Its like no time has passed between us. My intership situation is really stressing me out, i called last monday and still no work back from them. I dont really understand why they havent responded to my Three messages. But im hoping everything will work out. Anyways, i really need to start planning my trip to jersey and NYC to visit school friends. Im thinking the weekend after the july 4th to go to jersey, anyone want to come? Anyone way i feel like i left my freshman year at the perfect time. If it was 2 weeks ago i would have never wanted to leave. I had a boy, i had no work, i had fun. But the last couple weeks were stressful with the whole finals thing. Me and tom Stopped speaking which was probally for the better. Weather was too nice to be inside studying. And i missed my dog severely. Oh and also im going to get a Mass Id that says im 21, but its not a liscencse so hopefully it will still work. Hopefuly will not be a waste of 70bucks. But anyways life is good, and im not complaining about anything. I really want to just hang out with more people i havent seen in a while, nothing like chillen opening a beer and talking about the good old days :).

Thu, 10 May 2007 23:16:03 GMT

Kirsten Solomon= Worst luck ever. i dont want to expand on that. My life is so emmbarrasing. Ohwell

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 23:07:46 GMT

Well i havent really updated in a long ass time. But yeah life is good. Freshman year is almost over and thats pretty weird. Like sophmore year, then after that im half way done through college and after that is life. Well I landed a pretty sweet internship over the summer at this hotel in boston. im really pumped about it. But anyways, I've decided that i need to work on not being an awkward person.

by this time next year theres some things i could like to accomplish, I'd like to not talk as much shit as i do...Its a really bad thing to do. Id like to be 10-20 pounds thinner... so then i could be a little more confident. I'd like my grades to rise a little bit. I'd like to have a good boyfriend by then.. because no one has really stuck out to me in the past months, its been depressing. And probally some other things but i cant really think of them...well im going to see taking back sunday tonight for like the 7th time... im such a loser. So i gotta go drink some wine.

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 21:58:39 GMT

Hm I havent written seriously in this thing in like months!
But anyways.. things have been alright.
For some reason, i havent felt like myself lately.
I need the winter to go away.
Maybe i just need to go home for a few days.
I dont know.
But anyways.. School is fucking stressing me out.
Im not going to do good this semester i can tell.
My grades are seriously lagging.
I got a job as a telemarketer.
It fucking sucks.
But i need the moeny and i can pick my own hours.
And i work one day on friday afternoon which is sweet because no one is home so I just chill and do sodokus.
But i doubt ill last long there.
Being rejected all night long kind of sucks
but anyways.
life is ok.
My friends are prettyy sweet.. they get me through my life.
I just need something to perk me up.
Well anyways this weekend was pretty chill.
Went to northhampton with some of the girls.
its a cute town.
Got a little tipsy fri and hung out in OHIL and then went to chill with zac and his broski.
Last night i went to a frat.
It was pretty cool but like it was packed then we went to the bathroom and came back downstaris and everyone was seriously gone.
so we went to another party that kind of blew. but anyways i gotta go call people and ask them for moeny. PEACE

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 04:36:45 GMT

well my dog has cancer in his bum. and hes getting his first and only tumor (so far) removed so far. Im a mess. Its strange how attached you can get to an animal

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 06:29:14 GMT

hm. i havent really writeen in this thing for a while.. but I have some things on my mind.
I was thinking about myself today and how im so easily affected. Particularly by my friends. I've never been in love and probally never will be so i feed off my friends. Everything they do affects how i view myself. Some are happy some are miserable and all of them have had a huge effect on how i think, how i act and how i feel. This vacation has been weird. I havent had one night that i look back and think to myself... that was a great night. Its weird. The more i come home, the more i realize how much i love school. My friends, my life, my new home. I slowly feel like i dont belong here. Its weird, at the end of the semester all i could think about was coming home, but its not like i expected. Everyone is different, including myself. All my friends that i left behind have slowly formed into new clicks and i dont feel like i belong there. Today i put my whole life into perspective. I realized im not doing anything to better myself. Im drinking, im partying, im becoming more and more easy. Im not happy about who im becoming... but then again im probally happier than ive been in a while.

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 23:13:56 GMT

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
NO CHEATING

Opening Credits: A favor house atlantic

Waking Up: Glassjaw- Twisted logic-coldplay

First Day At School: I want to fuck you- Akon

Falling In Love: The who- talking about my generation

Fight Song: Doin the cockroach-Modest Mouse

Breaking Up: The last quarter- youth group

Prom: Cross my heart- Rocket summer

Life's OK: Another innocent girl- Alkaline trio

Mental Breakdown: Tune out- the format

Driving: Different names for the same things- death cab for the cutie

Flashback: Tuff luff- the unicorns

Getting Back Together: Dead end- the format

Wedding: Fell victim-alkaline trio

Birth of Child: Going mobile- the who

Final Battle: Passenger seat- death cab for the cutie

Death Scene: Glassjaw- Falling for you-weezer

Funeral Song: Are you in?- Incubus

End Credits: Best of me -the starting line

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 07:56:44 GMT

well i guess im in college now.....
its pretty fun tonight was good.
right now its 4 in the morning and my roomate is watching a movie and i cant sleep with sound.. but its cool.. im gona go puke

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 18:23:52 GMT

The countdown is on............................20 days.. can you fuckinggg believe it!

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 18:08:19 GMT

9 lasts --

1.] last kiss: like a couple weeks ago.
2.] last cigarette: grosssss
3.] last beverage:agua
4.] last movie watched:John tucker must die
5.] last phone call: Ash
6.] last cd played: Ipod.
7.] last BUBBLE bath: <333 them but not for a while
8.] last time you cried: recently
9.] last alcohol drink: beer

8 have you evers --

1.] have you ever dated someone twice: who hasnt
2.] have you ever been cheated on: nope
3.] have you ever kissed someone: der
4.] have you ever kissed someone you regret: naw
5.] have you ever fallen in love: no
6.] have you ever lost someone:yeah.
7.] have you ever been depressed: who hasnt
8.] have you ever been drunk and thrown up:yeah

6 things you've done today

1.] Showered
2.] uploaded my DC pics
3.] went for a run.
4.] drank water
5.] slept.
6.] i did a soduku

5 people you can tell pretty much anything to --

1.] Jac
2.] Suzzanee
3.] Shannon.
4.] Jocelyn

3 favorite colors --

1.] Purple
2.] pink
3.] green

2 things you want to do before you die --

1.]Be completely happy
2.]Travel everywhere

So Far in '06 I have:

[x] been to school
[x] made a new friend
[ ] fallen out of love
[ ] done something you swore never to do
[x] lied
[x] laughed until you cried
[x] stole something
[x] went behind your parents back
[ ] cried over an ex
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested ((came close a couple a times though)
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[x] left the state
[ ] almost died
[x] drank
[x]lost someone
[ ] been to the hospital
[x] gotten close to someone
[ ] streaked
[x] cried over someone
[x(sorta)] broken up with a gf or bf
[x] given up something important to you
[x] talked on the phone all night
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try
[ ] found out who your true friends were
[x] made a total fool of yourself
[x] met great people
[x] gotten really drunk
[x] kissed someone

RED

1. Are you currently mad at someone?:nope
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper?:Danielle
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?:prob
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?: no
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream?: I just am a bitch

ORANGE

1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party?:only with a few people never a biiig one
2. Are you easily excited: yes.
3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about? college
4. Which of your friends gets you the most excitable?:everyone of them
5. if you won a million dollars what would be your first thought: SWEEET! SHOPPP!
6. if you could have anything right now what would it be?:Loveee

YELLOW

1. Name: Kirsten
2. Where were you born?: boston
3. What's your main goal in life?: just be happy
4. Do you want to have children?: im not sure
5. How do you want to die?: old age

BLUE

1. What was your latest dream? I dotn remember
2. Have any of your dreams come true: No
3. do you usually remember your dreams?:sometimes

PURPLE

1. Do you have a bf/gf?: nope
2. Do you have a crush?: nope
3. Who is the best hugger that you know?:Kyleee
4. Do you believe in Love at first sight?: lust at first sight.
5. Have you ever been in love?: naw

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 05:48:22 GMT

"I dont care about the money, I just want to be wonderful!" -Marilyn Monroe

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 13:24:17 GMT

its been quite awhile since ive updated this thing....

But i must say
i have had quite the summer..
Ive been hanging out with so many awesome people
Not to mention the constant party which has overtaken my life.
The past couple days i have been pretty sick and today im getting a little better
they say I may have mono.. quite the buzzkill if you ask me
School is coming up faster and faster!
It makes me really nervous but i cant avoid it so i might as well just embrace it.
Its really funny ..the progression of time

i just remember freshman yr...(you dont have to read anymore this is more just for myself)
little, dorky me. i thought i was so cool. plus I always went for the hot black men. I listened strictly to underground rap. I hung out with a group of girls and we called ourselves the mot crew. I talked so much shit about everyone. I didnt know any of the rules of highschool. But you know what they say with every bad experience you grow and learn, maybe thats just every experience you encounter, but either way i grew and learned.

The sophmore year,

My last year at GDA. I tried to keep myself low key, but i never really fit in with anyone. I lied and tried but it didnt work. If anything this year taught me to just be yourself. I tried to get the BADDEST boy but it never worked they never do. And .. like that he was gone. That summer i started hanging out with the danvers guys all the time I found my group.

Junior year,
Back to Peabody Public. It fit much better. My friends were simply amazing. I was myself. I was addicted to Rob but with that i realize i was never myself. I always tried to be who i thought he would want me to be and maybe thats why it never completely worked. But either way it was a good year. I made so many new friends i dont even know what to do with myself. I danced. I cruised quite a bit... which may possibly be my best highschool memories. The DUEL cruises. I lost a lot of weight to which really helped my confidence quite a bit. My grades were really good.... everything was just really good.
Not to mention the summer of my junior year. I thought it would be the best time I ever had... little did i know i was just preparing myself.

Senior year-
it had its ups and downs but overall it was an awesome year. Towards the end i was so stressed with zac and that whole situation it was hard for me to look at the whole picture and be like wow im a senior and im leaving... but eventually it blew over and i got happy. The week of my graduation was probally the best week of my entire life. I had a dream graduation night like they do in the movies. And this summer the fun has died down a little bit but overall im still loving it and trying to enjoy every second of it. Mygrls.. the love we have is rediculous! And my boys there is too much to say!

Its been a journey but i would never take any of it back!

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 03:52:06 GMT

Prom was sooo good
Sick limo
Prom was awesome
Dans intense and crazy at proms i loved it.
After party was small and fun
i love my bro
i love watching people go at it.. not gona lie
it was just the best prom everrrr :)
Ill miss being a senior

Tue, 16 May 2006 18:18:45 GMT

Ive had such a good mini vacation
Friday:
senior skip day
so i went to school for 1st to take a math test.
Then i went to breakfast with ash and shan
then we went to see just my luck with lindsay lohan.
I really didnt want to see it, but i actually loved it.
It was really funny
Then i met up with jac and matt.
Then j-cup and nickO
then we went to jacs
then me and danielle left and i bought a digital camera! YES!
then we went to the bird sanctuary
Then we ran from the non existant cops.
and went in this field and got soaked but it was fun

Saturday:
I had dance
then work
Then I went to Rauls because he was having a "Meeting"
Tons of people were there
then i carted around like 10 drunk people.
Met up with Tj, chris, the petes and some others at CVS.
Hung out there for like an hour.
Went for a burn run except i dont burn.
LUCILLE, ROGER! your gona bang a LUCILLE!
yeah
fun night

Sunday:
Mothers day
Work was cancelled due to flooding.
Mall with jac and danielle
99 with them too
came home.
watched some weird movie with danielle
had a dance party all night

Monday:
Went to the rapids in Danvers with matt zach and nicko.
Nicko had fireworks and almost killed us
went to roccos with jac
went home and fell asleep
went to the movies.
went to the square! IT WAS SO FLOOODED!
Absolutely crazy!

and the best part is.. i dont need to make thses days up! Im so puimped
I love life!

Wed, 10 May 2006 02:24:07 GMT

A is for age:
- 17

B is for beer of choice:
- Anything.. im an easy drunk

C is for career:
- $$.. and travel. Isnt everyones?

D is for your dog's name:
- Ace, munchkin anything because hes so damn cute!

E is for essential item you use everyday:
- Hm. Cell i guess

F is for favorite song at the moment:
- I dont know

G is for favorite game:
- TABOO!

H is for Home town:
- P to the eabs

I is for instruments you play:
- the flute!!! GET IT!! HAHA

J is for favorite juice:
- well when you are sick cranberry juice is to a sick person as vodka is to a lush. So at the moment craburrry

K is for whose ass you'd like to kick:
-Peace man, peace

L is for last hug:
- I hugged that tree in my front yard. Is that weird? Save the enviroment bra

M is for marriage:
- fuckk that

N is for name of your last ex:
- I guess mattMac even though not like super technically.

O is for overnight hospital stays:
- Never

P is for phobias:
- I fucking hate the dark, id hate top be an obese adult, losing touch, growing old, being disliked

Q is for quote:
- "Live, and let live

R is for Biggest Regret:
no regrets

S is for special:
-brownies. yeah d00d my basement 2 oclock

T is for time you wake up:
- If i had a choice.. like never. Seriously i love sleeping

U is for underwear:
- Commando, jk. I shop in the old woman section. SExay

V is for vegetable you love:
- anything long and hard

W is for worst habit:
- i doubt everything and everyone.
I dont really like that many people.
Im pretty judgmental.
I just suck pretty much

X is for x-rays you've had:
- so many wtf

Y is for yummy food you make
- I heard i make a pretty tasty punani pie.. ok i had to do it!

Z is for zodiac sign:
- Gemin to the I

Sun, 07 May 2006 04:13:19 GMT

Heres my question,
Why do we waste our time with guys?
seriously whats the point?
Everyone spends so much time stressing out about them.
And what do they do?
Make you feel like shit.
I always hear these fairy stories about people who say its so good to love and be loved.
Did i miss something?
Every good looking, respectable guy has already been snatched up.
Apparently i must have missed the bus.
But anyways im sick of being hurt.
Im sick of feeling gross and ugly and shitty because of fucking boys who i really dont care about.
So from now on Im ASEXUAL!
yeah bitches ill reproduce myself.

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 20:10:59 GMT

But anyways heres a list of things id like to change about myself this year:
physically id def like to be a lot slimmer.
mentally.
Id like to not get so worked up about stupid things
Not be so judgemental
Let things go.
Not be fake
Try to not hang around with those who hurt me\
Surround myself with those who care about me
Be honest
Boy wise:
stop playing any sort of mind games
And be more open about everything.
Im sick of the chase.
Im confident one day ill meet a nice boy who will like me for me and not feel the urge to only like me when he cant have me.

I have 19 more days of school left.
Seriously get me out.
but anyways my life is alright.
In the past month is seems as ive just let myself go.
I've told everyone how i felt about them and everything and in a lot of cases it really helped me out.
I feel like im just learning so much about myself.
and i cant wait for college to come.
It will be nice to have a completely fresh start on a lot of things.
Im pumped rachel is going to umass.. i seriously do love her!
I have a fucking headache though.
And i think im getting sick.
I know what its from too:(

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 16:10:42 GMT

I dont know mannn.
I always say I like guys better.
But i think i really do like girls better.
Guys tend to be way more unreliable.
In fact, i can only think of a handful of guys that I would consider good friends.
Sometimes its jsut nice to hang with the girls
Well...

Ive been shopping non-stop for 3 days.
Still no prom dress.
well i bought a dress but not really for any purpose i just bought it.
love it!

i quit smoking on 4/20.
Instead i went shopping in boston.
maybe ill quit shopping too because i seriously am addicted.
But anyways mini-golfing anyone?

Vacation part 1

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 15:16:54 GMT

I've had such a good vacation.
I was kinda down a for the weeeks before vacation.
So sorry if i was in a bad mood.
Im over it

Vacation update::

Thurs:
Passover at my uncles.
Jac came.
hung out with danielly when i came home.

Friday:
Me and jac picked up Jacob.
He was kinda down.
WE played some frisbee
He went to the dentist, and we went to cheer him up
Went to audobon.
Walked the entire audobon.
I skipped dance.
Got beer from hobos.
went to the bird sanctuary.
Went to jacs, had a dance party.
Drove the boys home.

Saturday:
I think i worked all day.
Then went out to china villa with the girls from work

Sunday:
EASTER!!!
I love Easter.
Went to jacs uncles house.
Ate our brains out.
Came home picked up tool.
played frisbee.
Made chris and kyle watch the notebook.
Then Matt and crew came over.
Went to the pit.
It was pretty fun.
there were a bunch of kids there.
Then we drove around for a bit.
Came home.

Monday:
Went to salem with Christine and panda.
WEnt to the hotdog factory.
And then went to a pyscic.. she wsa pretty right on
worked

Tuesday:
went to coffee with looof
then we decided to go to unh.
that was pretty fun
Saw liz and shula.
Went to newburyport! ugh!never again.
Seriously put me in the worst moood.
WEnt to GDA it kinda sucked. Im not gona go back.
Came home
sent in the check to umasss amherst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooohooo
went to bakers.
He had pretty cool cups.
the tullys and shawna came by.
The drove me home.
THE END

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 19:07:07 GMT

But the lows are so extreme.
that the good seems fucking cheap.